I'm Hailey. 17. Massachusetts. Potterhead. Nerdfighter. Tribute. Music lover. Food addict. I think I'm good at things, but I'm really not.
This is a personal blog.
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I'm Hailey. 17. Massachusetts. Potterhead. Nerdfighter. Tribute. Music lover. Food addict. I think I'm good at things, but I'm really not.
This is a personal blog.
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sometimes i wish i had that friend i could text and say “whats up?” to. i literally don’t have that. and it actually feels weirdly lonely.
i wish people would explain why others are so adored and loved and stuff. like why one person can do no wrong and why everyone thinks they shit gold. like someone please explain how people get that title. no one should be put above all else, no matter how beautiful or talented or poetic or deep or even troubled they are. it just annoys me a lot.
im really sick of people always trying to find bigger meanings behind things, but not taking things literally. like, you can write a fucking epic based on one look someone gave you, and you read super far into it. but if someone tells you they love you or they are upset, they dont believe it. they want everything to be fake, they want to manipulate it and make up emotions behind things so they can have control to put meaning behind things. sometimes its there. and sometimes there is a deeper meaning to things. but who the fuck are you to analyze everything and then take that analysis to be fact and not budge from your assumptions? all you end up doing is sounding like a pretentious asshole. maybe you are one. who knows. i will admit, few things are simple in life. but you need to take advantage of the simple things, and try and take them for what theyre worth. it makes life a hell of a lot easier.
so i have some stupid issue with my eye
like i had some type of allergic reaction that made it swell and its red and it itches SO bad
and it fucking sucks because i look stupid and also prom is friday and if it doesnt clear up im buying an orange eye patch and wearing it because yolo
but srsly i dont even wanna go to school until this clears up because i already have appearance issues and im going to have to deal with everyone saying um your eye is swollen lol and me having to be like IFUCKINGKNOWOKAY
ugh white girl problems are the worst problems
so today was a really good day but its spiraling down into a really crappy one
there really is no particular reason, im just feeling crappy about myself.
like im in one of those moods where i just want someone to listen to my venting about how lame i am and someone that lets me feel sorry for myself while i rest my head on their lap and they shovel ice cream into my mouth.
and i dont even like ice cream
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i wish i was just like a “normal” teenager. and could slack and sleep in without feeling guilty and could relax and live a little and drive and be young and freee~. but NO. i have to be the only perfectionist, workaholic, psycho, paranoid, uptight 17 year old. it’s a very lonesome feeling.
So I guess I’ll show you guys my prom dress. Ignore how big it is (alterations haven’t been made yet) and ignore my hideous bathroom.
PS I’m not tanning. So I’m sure I’ll look greeeeaaaaaaat….
all i want to do is breathe and snuggle and watch movies with my friends and rant and talk and vent and catch up with people but i feel like i have noooo timeeeee
